HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMCHINHIN ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIELIN ! NCHS talk today morning , SIAN .
me & lydia's like talking all way through .
NOT INTERESTED LUHHS .made fun lil bit , but NO OFFENCE LUHHS .
NCHS = nicholas cuckoo headed school .
LOLS . was superb laughing like hell , MAN .
saw weixin sleeping . laughed at her . she laughed too .
talk end , bck to class . no need chnge to MT class (;
folded straw hearts . LOLS . nth to do , help out lohrs .
did like 200+ altgt today .
mrd nathan arranged us into our tents ,
this part is so STUPID kay , SOSO STUPID .
now , me , lydia , bleva , xinying hv to sleep with yiling .
whose fault ?
HER fault . {not mrs nathan}
who ask her go other ppl group , pang sehh us lahr ?
she told thm she will be with thm , what she told us ?
SHE TOLD US TH SAME THING !?
now what happen ? SHE LEFT US WITH YILING .
i don't mind tht for now , i MIND her attitude .
it digusts me , it dissapoints me , IT MAKES ME HATE HER .
what to do ? i can't do anything . its HER attitude . not mine .
I WON'T TRUST HER EVER AGAIN . she lied many times to me , i forgave her one by one .
idk if i can do it again this time .
everytime she lied , she will say tht th lie is to cheer me up .
WHAT HELL EXCUSE IS THT ? VERY COOL INDEED .
she always say whatevs TRUE FRIEND stuff , CRAPS LUHHS .
LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES LIES !
i though today was a happy day . but i changed my mind .
EDITED /to tht GIRL .
yeah , th problem lies with my heart , what about yours ?
you don't even know where went wrong , you don't even know how WE feel .
its not only me who is not happy . its WE , its US .
yeah , you can choose your own kayaking partners , tent group .
THN WHY DID YOU TELL US THT YOU WILL KAYAK WITH LYDIA , AND GO IN TH SAME GROUP WITH US PREVIOUSLY HUH ?
yeah , your freedom . you freedom to hurt US . not only ME .
US . tht was once your very good FRIENDS . but you hurt US .
and , WHY MUST YOU BE HAPPY AND I AM SAD !? WHY CAN'T I BE HAPPY AND YOU SAD ? WHAT LOGIC IS THT !?
you gave up , you are tired . what about me !?
i am tired too , I GAVE UP ON YOU TOO .
yeah , eunice gave you laughter and fun .
I GAVE YOU UNHAPPINESS AND BOREDOM . HAPPY !?
you gave her joy , you say i don't understand .
WHAT DID I SAY BOUT THT ? I DIDN'T EVEN SAY YOU CAN'T GIVE HER JOY . I DIDN'T SAY YOU CAN'T GO WITH HER . I WAS JUST SITTING AT A SIDE , LOOKING AT YOU AND HER , HAPPILY TGT , LEAVING ME ALONE . HAPPY !?
and who doesn't want to be happy !?
you want happiness , i want it too .
you say you thought of me . yeah i DOUBT so .
you thought of how to get yiling to share tents with us .
tht's how you thought for ME . thnks A LOT .
you asked if i thought of YOU GIRLS .
yeah , if i didn't , if i didn't want you all to be happy , i would hv asked mrs nathan to changed th names . WHAT DID I SAY !? I SAID NEVERMIND . LET IT BE . SHE'S STILL GONNA BE WITH US .
yeah , i criticised you , i am in th wrong .
how bout you ? did you think bout YOURSELF !? yeah , you did .
why must i live for you ? I DON'T WANT THIS , BUT YOU MADE ME DO THIS .
yeah , you slept with last year .
DID I CHOOSE IT !? I DIDN'T .
you felt sad after reading my blog . how about me ?
DID YOU EVEN THINK !?
you didn't scold me in your blog . BUT TO ME , THOSE ARE INSULTS .
i want tht friendship bck . I REGRETTED .
but aft tht post on yr blog . I DON'T REGRET ANYMORE .
and i didn't even dump you in th first place .
you said tht yourself . th problem lies with you .
WE DIDN'T DUMP YOU . thts th fact .
what's wrong with finding you and play; talk; have fun ?
is there a problem !?
if there is , TELL ME EARLIER . i don't want to be th EXTRAS in your life .
i hv my own friends , own darlings . ILOVETHM . i go along with thm and spend more time with thm . you too . you spend more time with eunice and friends tht you loved . DID I SAY YOU DUMPED ME LIKE HOW YOU SAID I DUMPED YOU !? clearly , i did not .
I HATE THIS . i am really tired of this . i am sorry BUT i just feel like ending it . let's just end here . end this friendship . i am sorry , i didn't know i am tht EXTRA in your life . i am just gonna let go . those wonderful memories we shared together . let's just end today . right now . this second . i don't want to regret . and please don't let me regret .
last words for you , i still HEART you . but just let me forget you . please . i don't wanna cry anymore . GOODBYE .
; i really miss those days when we were primary 5 .
me ; lydia ; belva ; xinying & you .
let's just wave our hands & say GOODBYE .
